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nothing is everlasting. let me be an example.

i don't want to end it like this. but if that's what you want. u said i'm the one suffering , but i don't think it's me .

u said u made me suffer. but that's not how i feel .
u decided to make it an end . well that's up to you . because i don't want force you anymore . because 勉强不是幸福。

i think i am the one that made you suffer , it's my fault for walking into your life .

not everything's your fault . i had the most of it .

i'm a guy , but i do not know how to make decisions , instead i asked you to make decisions . useless right ?

yes , i am a bastard , which interfere you & that guy .

Go on & find your happiness . i shall not interfere anymore .

i believe time will make it right , but .. hah , th end.

i guess this is goodbye for true .

always smile . don't frown all the time because of losing mahjong kay !
don't be short tempered [:
don't go vandalising public playgrounds anymore!
always eat your break fast kay !
don't always sleep late late .
don't always quarrel w your family alrites.
don't always eat macdonalds because you said you will have incomplete digestion .
don't always burn midnight oils for exams ! :/
will buy sushi & green tea for you .
becareful of your belongings ! don't lose another 500 bucks !
don't always eat chocolate you pig .
try to slim down u fat swine !
don't be violent ! be nice to francis sometimes even when he disturbs you. haha.
don't always use itouch . later eyes spoil x.x
go for your netball trainings okay . got cca points de x.x
study hard yea . i'm sorry i can't keep my promise .
find yongjun when your bored. i can't entertain people de. haha. but not always kay ! rb will jealous de :D
don't sad anymore . i'm worthless.

This is goodbye . thank you for everything.

sighhx.

tiring day today. that asshole robin he called me & some how forced me to eat breakfast w him. okay lahr is i called him to pei me first. but i'm rly damn tired from all the cyclings & i didn't get a sleep yet :/ alrites. he came to my house @ around 9am. he asked me to sleep until 10am , suan ta hai you liang xin (: . shagggggg, because someone's at malaysia ]: . even it is just for one day .. but STILL .

Woke up at 10.30 , robin woke me up . i guai lan w him abit haha. Got my things ready, switched off the bloody cold air con & com, went out for breakfast. Reached the hawker . Ate nasi lemak & drank china apple :D . fuufuu, didn't really ate finished.. because suddenly i got stomachache -.- . Robin kept physco me to kup ciggs w him . zzz. & of cause, i refused :D . don't really have the money to smoke anymore , well , maybe this is a good thing [:

Went home, chiong to the bloody toilet. lol. switch on the aircon , used my laptop until i sleep :X .

Woke up at 4.30pm liddat , checked my phone , received a sms from someone that she said she's going to msia alrdy D: lol .

on msn w her until 6 plus ? lol , bathed & went downstairs to meet uncle . Went to yj house afterwards. went to dunman food court & had my dinner there . [: their kuey chap best ! somehow -.-

went to lan near katong there , played l4d. Weixin , sherwin , simon , ian&co. came afterwards , & of cause they were playing dota -.- went back to yj house 1 hr later. Ate tiramisu & DRANK WHISKY BABY! although it's just pint ... or maybe lesser.

Currently missing her . D: am still , am still , am still , am still , AM STILL . okay always will X:

ahrr . i miss you so much. ]:

BYEEEBYEEE :D

:D

fuck, we did a very low life thing today. haha.
Went to school today. slept through all the classes still tired. D:
Went to 121 & slack. morseton the whole day. went home, took a long nap. haha, i had weird dreams :/ , i dreamt that my ahgong came back. & we were v rich, & i was w a bunch of friends in my mansion o.o . as long as i rmb, there is yj, rb , beehan , uncle , terence , dexter & nicki -___- . stupid right !? haha. My phone sotsot the whole morning. cb -__- & i cant use it to message , will hang !

hmm, got fucking hungry after wards. afterall i whole day nv eat :/ . Called yj , as he ask me whether want to ton outside. But i went out & eat my dinner first. & soon bian wait for yj&rb. terence called me , ask me go his hse ton , but i said we at reservoir jetty tonned & he gan me. -.-

OKAY. tanroubing was fucking slow. yj was waiting for her under her house. Terence & francis came first. so i slacked w them. Went to reservoir jetty, the floor is damn wet , not dry yet, so we planned where to go , & a stupid idea came out of nowhere, koping mahjong table at blocks , door to door & bring it to terence house & play. the bird couple came afterwards. -__- we ending up koping bikes & Leo came after wards, & i thought who the fuck is that guy , wearing a beanie -.- . We went back to reservoir jetty . chatted awhile & daidee - ed.

roubing went back home at 3am. zzz . Yongjun decided to went crazy w me. we went to block 500+ kop bike. took a lot of time . but yay, i kop 2 bikes :D leo kop 2 bikes. . Leo went back w the bike i kop & cycled back home . i hate leo , he left the bike under his block , soon after that got stolen & i need to kop again. cb -.-
so i kop another bike . THEN, we go on to a journey to east coast -__-

Okay, on the way was fun, but after that, my legs are like numbbbbbbbbz. Terence had a new nick name, called NO-BRAKE! haha, cause he kept complaining his bike has no brake. -.- . my bike the wheel is small , it's very easy to free-hand ride. so i free hand ride & dance tecktonik otw X.X & we had breaks, almost every straights, just to wait for terence -.- reached east coast, WANTED to see sunrise, but got fucking clouds covering it, as it was going to rain :/ . Yongjun & terence went to yongjun's house. me & francis cycled back home -____- .


All this is worth . afterall , it pull us brother's feeling in . haha.




&& , MORSETON . X:



&ohyea. bye.

&! this is a long post :D




P.S

i bet my thigh is fucking fit now -______-

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YO. hah , didn't went to school today. when i woke up , it's 7am alrdy, by the time i got ready, it's going to be 7.10 or something, so no point going to school. don't wanna get detention :B got oral too.

Went down to 121 find those usual monkeys , hah. slacked at 108 today. Cycling annchen's bicycle :D . Rb beehan dionis weixin & charlotte went off first for oral , terence, dexter , uncle & francis went to terence house and play mahjong . Went to mac w annchen & yj to meet nicki pei her eat . Saw ahblack they all , they were going to don't know whose chalet , annchen went off too. so me , nicki & yongjun lifelessly slacked at mac while waiting for roubing they all. 

Went to opposite mac there slack as they reached .

Slacked awhile , pei nicki go mama near the place we were slacking , saw feon , WILLY YAP & dexter's stead . talked awhile , and i pei nicki to 739 for her mavis as she's going to be late. we cabbed there -___- . After her tuition thn meet her .

went back & find them , but they were going back home & meet @ katong shopping center . but those who stays at bedok area meet at interchange first. so i went back to 739 again , Went to sk awhile , pei aunty play as her lan shop had no internet connection & there were v few people supporting auntie's shop .

finally it's 7pm , i went to the coffee shop at 739 , waited for her . song her go bus stop , but her mum's gonna fetch her, so i pei her awhile den went to bedok inter & meet weixin they all.

reached interchange , but beehan&angela were damn fucking slow. Eat nasi lemak at inter . one of my favourites . :D .

we took 14 to katong as soon as they reached, it's fucking hell long of a ride, should have took another bus. lol.

Reached there , beehan's boyfriend & yongjun were waiting outside the shopping center , Pool-ed awhile , went to eat . basically i have no mood , because something happened. but hah, i'm trying to pretend nothing happened. shouldn't say much. but now i'm alright le , haha. :/ Went to Yongjun's house & ton , im at his house right now , downloading l4d for him. :D

*edit . fuck , i'm cancelling the downloads, ITS FUCKING LONG ZZ .

[:

Yay, i jumped out of school today, my shin is still hurt , the impact is too great for my leg, now my shin bone hurts ]: .

Went to find roubing, yongjun and leo at 2nd mama . slack arounnd until 1.30 pm . beehan & dionis came and find us slack. But i got a date out for L4D with annchen terence & sinyi . Sinyi got chinese oral exam O: so i waited for her until 3 plus. Met her and took bus 21 home & change . Went out , find annchen , saw chanhuei there too . terence had no ez-link card , so he couldn't play lan . too bad :/ . Sinyi came afterwards . Chanhuei met her friends, waited for bus to get to grandlink .

Took bus 21 , went to dexter house the bus stop there , walked a short distance to grandlink .

played l4d for 2hr30minutes liddat , Went to find terence , dexter and uncle as they are nearby , walked to dexter house , & they started mahjonging (terence dexter uncle & nicki O:)

in th end , nicki won the most out of they all. terence , as usual lost again . took bus 21 & went back home . gonna sleep , nites [:

D:

yay, it's thursday. and friday is good friday, which means holiday :D . and we're going out to kbox on fri . hah, don't get jealous viewers X: . took alot of jiaojiao pictures with roubing.

 hah. really damn jiao right ! 

we were going to be , "on air!" Alright, it's not really gonna be some interviewing from the radiofm, it's just our english project [: . Slacked around school area. the same lifeless slackers slacked around the same place. haha.

Went home, changed, went down to meet them. followed terence back home, together w uncle and get mahjong tiles. they wanted to play mahjong, but no tiles and mahjong table. they intended to play on the floor, and it's like WTFBBQ -.- Took bus to Dexter house with the mahjong tiles, it's damn embarrasing. Uncle went back home & changed clothes, while we went to aljunied there and took our dinner.

Dexter went to his friend's house, (they are neighbours.)borrowed a mahjong table, aft that they started mahjonging , i look at them play. terence's hand was like $(%*$*(&^ wtf. it's amazingly shit -__- . but he kept drawing in the tiles he wants. not bad for him today, didn't really lose any money. that could be counted as a miracle ._. . nicki lost 10bucks, uncle won 10bucks, dexter&terence didn't lose& aww, sad for her ]: .

tooooook damn 2 hours for them to finish . -___- .


took the LAST BUS and went back to terence house. lucky ain't it. :D
Gonna sleep , nites blogg. :D

O:

hoho , i'm back from a tiring day O: .

Well , today almost half of my class pupils didn't came for school, 21/38,37,36 attendance . i don't really know how many people are there in my class -___- . Our class doesn't have a full attendance before O: . its fucking bored, no one to talk to . whole day talk to xuanxin&roubing only D: . don't really enjoy todays lesson . stupid beehan & leo, why didn't you went for school ! assholes -___- . At least yongjun came to find us even he did not go for school ! Don't really have th feeling to study today, was trying to sleep , but my nose kept flying away. D: 

Went to 121 slack & eat w roubing&yongjun they all. after i ate my lunch , went home and change , and went back to 121 find them. Dexter got another trouble  . hah, kena something like probation , and it's even worser . can't really say much :/ 

slack all th way till roughly 8.30 and took bus home. [:

sick ]:

i woke up as usual for school, but my throat kind of felt heaty and it hurts. i realized i was sick. had runny nose and tonsilative. dk how to spell lahh.

met up with robin in the morning, walked to school. he was drowsy as he was smoking marlboro menthol chiong de. his whole body felt numb. :D serve him right, who call him smoke chiong one ! i singapore forever :D !

reached school at about 7am. slack around until 7.25am and went for our flag raising .

my throat was so pain that i couldn't even speak. so i diamdiam , hear they all sing :B

Had two periods of Physics, and triple period of english. after that , it's recess :D.

didn't really have the appetite to eat due to my sickness, still i have to force down the food to my stomach ]: . they all say it's yongjun's fault that we got sick, well i believe it as well, because yongjun is the only one that got sick , asshole , don't spread to me next time.

went to general office to report sick. beehan got out first, the OM is fucking bias , fuck him , he allow beehan to go home alone, and not me D: fuck his family potato head. Reached home about 12.30pm ? hahh. My grandma take cab down fetch me -__-" . use my laptop awhile. met beehan at about 2pm , she was complaining about how late i am, actually , i'm at home waiting for food to be ready , but i told her i'm eating alrdy :D . it was raining quite heavy. i ate and quickly rushed down to meet her. HAH , beehan sorry :/ 

we walked to block 121 , met up with robin . slack around. as more people joined up , we went to angela's block downstair and slack. crapping around, singing nobody by wondergirls. sorry dexter , we ruined ur favourite song X: . angela wanted to play true or dare because we had a plan to make yongjun and bingbing french kiss before we go home. HAHA , yongjun was so shy that he took like 10 minutes to finally kiss roubing O: . after they kissed , we all say "AWW go home lohh !" "WHA, play cheat also no need play until like that de ma !" HAH, too bad yj , who call you so suey to get a dare. X: . took bus 60 and went home.  around 7pm++ annchen they all called me down and slack . i went to block 604 there find thm, slack , disiao some biantai , and went home. Going to sleep soon , nites [:

lifeless life :D