- THINKING -

hi . i know you can't see , i decided to blog down my feelings you see . if you can see this , i mean really omg . u are a "god" .

i have been thinking for wayy too long .
seems like ever since the 8th month i've been waiting , i've been thinking.
"maybe i'm not suitable for her", "maybe i'm not worthy for her ","maybe i should just leave you alone " , "maybe you're just too hard to err , 'yang',"
"i don't know how to make girls happy , i don't know how to take initiative , i'm just too inexperience for this , i'm just too shy ."
this all are just negative sides of me .

there are alot i've been thinking about you .

"maybe you're too hong ?", "too experience ?" ,
"too hard to handle ?" . alot more infact.

I've heard a lot of stories about you , but why the fuck am i still waiting?
just because i can't forget you ?
i love you too much ?
still trust you o.o ?
still care for you ?
idk why will i get jealous when ur close with other guys .
& yeah , brothers are exceptions. still .
- wtf -
i seriously don't know what to do . omfg ! haha.
seeing you around just makes be happy , & sad too .
this just took too long.
toooooooooooooo long.
tooooooooooooo long.
toooooooooooo long.
seriously too long.

i seriously feel like fucking crying out loud , but no .
i can't . especially infront of you guys .
i have to be strong yea ?

i've think a lot. especially at yongjun's birthday .
Had heart to heart talk with leo, bing & francis especially , they're really good at this .

willykoh . you should go drill a hole & fuck it .

This is for you guys to see .

thanks a lot man , love you guys.