sigh

i always say i will help you blog when im free . exams are finally over , i can somehow relax already :/

anyways , i can see that recently , there are something going wrong between us . and idk why . its just that . something is wrong . you know , i feel so on and off . sometimes you will treat me damn good and warm but the next minute you turn to be so cold and seems to ignoring me . yeahs , im the one at fault . especially last night . im so sorry that i threw my temper at you due to moodswing . i dont mean it and i did apologize .

you feel far away from me . i feel so far away from you too . everything seems to be changing . and idk if is it a positive or negative side . and can you realise that we seems to be lack of things to talk about ? sometimes i want to start a conversation wit you when i see you like very bored uh , but im stuck . i really dont know what to say . somehow we're in the different school , different type of lives and you seems to be know most of the things about me already . just that , never mind .

you know i feel so loss of words now . i dont mean to blog those emotional stuff . but then , its just that i cant help but saying them out . it just that something you should know . and i didnt really hide things from you . whenever we quarrelled or argued , i will ask . what you are thinking now or what you're planning to do now . but you always tell me idk . you know , i dont like to make decisions . i rather the others make the decisions . i dont wanna comment on anything much . just that , different people different views . maybe i think that this is right , but maybe you think that it is wrong . just that , different mindset .

look at those post . previously and after we were together . the changes are there . i feel so bad , i feel so guilty . you seems happier . in fact , much happier before you met nickipoh . she seems to be ruining your life . she seems to be producing darkness than rainbow . but why . you seems to be there whenever she's needed . whenever she's down . whenever she's bored . why . she fcuking treating you like what sia . taking you for granted .

yesterday , it never felt so far away .